There only was one choice

Wednesday, December 31, 2003

RAINBOW CONNECTION

Sorry it's been a little while since the last post. It's been quite a few weeks. Rescuing damsels in distress, spending a week in Maine, running across I-93, getting screamed at by a national radio personality, and working on finding gainful employment. I'm following up on several good leads and know without question that in about six to eight weeks I'll have a job, no doubt, the problem is, I only have about three or four weeks, that will become a problem, it's really a matter of just a little more time and no more money, maybe we can find something in the meantime, I dunno.

It's NYE again, I was originally supposed to go the my roommates ski house, can't afford it, then down to New Haven, plans changed, back up to NH for a Clark campaign NYE party, that fell through too, and it's too late to reschedule and finally plan for a train trip to Hew Haven, so, as per usual I'll be alone on New Years, that's bothersome but I suppose if I can have fun and find a way to look at it positively it'll be ok. I really really feel like 2004 is going to be my year, just a gut feeling.

Anyway not much more to report I could go into detail on the last two weeks, and on job prospects but I think I won't also could go into the Pats, Catching Saddam and a few other things but I'll just end it hear, Happy New Year to all

posted by Adam Wednesday, December 31, 2003

Monday, December 15, 2003

LOOSING MY RELIGION

Or my mind, one of the two. The party this weekend was ok, met some good people Chris and Elanie came for a bit, as did Steve and Kevin bu I felt like they didn't have a great time and that's a shame, plus I just felt like it reminded me how much my life isn't in Bosotn any mroe, I want so badly to get out, but i have no where to go, no where abut Maine that is, and that is even less of an option.

I thought things were looking up on Friday job wise, had a couple of great conversations with a few people who appeared able and willing to help me, some good new ideas, or so they seemed, but with each new promising idea is a hard thud when my hopes come crashing down around me, phone call after phone call, email after email and NO ONE calling or emailing back, it's like I am completely irrelevant to the whole world, a nothing, somone the world has no use for and that's a really depressing feeling. which makes sense since I am constantly depressed lately, I am feeling sad and angry and don't even want to leave my room. I want so badly to be gone from Boston, from Maine, I want to be somehwere new, with a fresh start, but I can't make anyone hire me and I am broke, more broke than I've ever thoght I would be, which means I will loose this palce soon and there is nothing I can do about it, I can't find any part time work, nor any real work, every turn is just another door slamming in my face.

I've been trying to stay faithful to G-d lately but so often I jsut want to scream at Him for being the sick sadistic bastard I feel like He is. I don't deserve this, I don't deserve to suffer like this, and then I feel gulty because maybe it's all some twisted test of faith, and because I know that so many people have a lot worse challenges in life, people I'd love to be able to help, IF ONLY I COULD GET A FUCKING JOB!!!!!!!!

posted by Adam Monday, December 15, 2003

Tuesday, December 09, 2003

I ONLY HAVE EYES FOR YOU

Apparently that's what Vice President Gore is telling Howard Dean today. I've made no secret that out of the fact that I don't like Dean, I think he's a faux liberal and that bothers me, that said being endorsed by Gore, who I don't trust further than I can throw him, makes the game over. Dean is going to be nominee, no ifs ands or buts, it's over. The only thing that could make this a race again would be President Clinton endorsing Gen. Clark but that is highly unlikely. Here's all I'll say about Dean now, no matter how I feel about him he is going to be opposing W in a few months and the Democratic party had better get behind him NOW, don't beat the hell out of one another, don't let W sit back and fill his coffers even more. The other need to drop out and coronate Dean now for the sake of the party, this is the one things Republicans do very well and we need to take their example. We need to get behind him now and give him our time, money, energy, whatever Dean needs, because though I can't be inspired by him or any of the others, the most important thing is ending the conservative stranglehold on our government, if the party says Dean is the guy, then Deans' the guy, it's that simple.

posted by Adam Tuesday, December 09, 2003

IS IT WRITTEN IN THE STARS? (from the Broadway Musical Aida)

An appropriate question for today. I've been doing a very large amount of writing lately. I have chosen to work on a book whose attempt will be to inspire young people to get engaged politically, non-partisan mind you, I figure book number 2 can be why young people should be liberal. I am also working on writing a musical, moderniziing an old classic and showing that its message is still incredibly relevant today, not that I am at all comparing my ability to Jon Larson's but I figure my idea is to do for Fiddler what Rent did for La Boheme

I've also grabbed the bull by the proverbial horns, sending out more resumes, got a great lead from Reich that may lead to something, and spoke today to a company out of NYC that provides a two year fellowship to young people with an idea for a non-profit, I may just write a proposal to bring the Summer Vision program from Maine to a big city, i.e. Boston or San Fran, and see what happens, sometimes I guess you have to make your own magic.

I posted something on the APDA forum about why I was leaving the circuit and have gotten several very nice emails from people, some who I know well, some who I did not, but it was nice to know that I had an impact on some of them I will miss it, but it really is time to say goodbye.

Christmas party, Saturday Dec. 13th at the apartment, wanna come, email me :)

posted by Adam Tuesday, December 09, 2003

Saturday, December 06, 2003

RESPECT

The American Parliamentary Debate Association (APDA) has been a major part of my life for the last six years now. It has brought me the friends I hold dearest in my life and has given me countless unforgettable experiences and the Brandeis team is as close as you can get to family without actually being so. But today I stepped foot in my last round of APDA debate ever. Normally when a debater graduates they will attend tournaments near where they live to judge, giving of their own time and experience, and in return are treated with respect which they deserve. Part of that respect is shown in the judging assignments that are handed out. For the last few tournaments I have attended I have seen rounds that are what most would consider mediocre at best, horrid at worst. When I finally pushed as to why that was today at MIT I was told that several teams had scratched me (preferred I not judge them) now that's fair, I think I am very fair judge, which may be part of the problem, the "good" teams never like a fair judge because they might loose, that said I was also told I was tiered for my ability as a second level judge, as opposed to many recent grads who had judged very few tournaments in comparison with my experience who were seeing great rounds all weekend, I have been on APDA for six years and have now probably judged more rounds than I competed in and people treat me like a joke. I know I'm old, fine, I actually find that kind of funny HOWEVER when others who hung on a lot longer than I have, came to judge they were at least treated respectfully, that's what hurts, this group that has given so much to me, and to whom I have given so much over the years is now treating me like a joke, I'm done, I don't need that in my life.

On a much happier note, I know the snow is hard to drive/walk in, but man I LOVE winter

posted by Adam Saturday, December 06, 2003

Thursday, December 04, 2003

THE MAN'S TOO STRONG

The man is, indeed, too strong, or so it seems. I just got a call from an interview I had the other day. The job was interviewing people over the phone to see if they'd be good candidates for market research studies. Cheap pay, easy as hell, good hours, full time and stable. The who called me informed the positions had been filled. I was kind of surprised I couldn't even get this job so I asked her if I wasn't qualified or if my interview was not positive, she told me no "in fact you are over-qualified" I replied by being blunt and saying look, I probably am over-qualified but being over-qualified doesn't pay my rent, she said she sympathizes but can't hire me because she needs someone she is sure will be with the company long term. I suppose on some level that makes sense but still, I mean I can't even get a TELEMARKETING JOB because I'm "OVER-QUALIFIED" I just want a job, any job, damn it this isn't fair I am too qualified for the menial jobs and not qualified enough for the good jobs, what the hell is in the middle?

Sorry to sound so bitter and angry but this just sucks and there is nothing I can do about it, I am already doing it all, doesn't help that I am going through serious sugar withdrawal from this diet.

posted by Adam Thursday, December 04, 2003

Wednesday, December 03, 2003

MONEY TALKS

Gotta love the pointedness of AC/DC.

Sorry it's been a few weeks but things have been very hectic, which is good

Home for the holidays, my cousin had a beautiful wedding on the Saturday after thanksgiving. Both my brother and I, and my sister and I had great conversations about our relationships.

I've been hitting the pavement hard looking for work, nothing yet, but soon hopefully.

I've got a busy few days planned with a couple of dates, the MIT tourney where I will reappear on APDA and a few other things

I've started the South Beach Diet, now to get the exercise I need.

That's all for now, I must say I am not feeling as devoted to this page as I did a while ago, that's ok though, I will probably post occasionally till I feel compelled to devote more time to it, until then if you want to know what's going on email or call me.

posted by Adam Wednesday, December 03, 2003