Saturday, March 06, 2004
WE DIDN'T START THE FIRE
I have had the political "fire" in my belly for some fifteen years now, ever since I stepped foot in Senator Mitchell's campaign office in 1988. The fire, I fear, is out. I am 25 years old, still waiting for life to really start. I can no longer internally justify spending 80 hours a week working for pay that barely allows me to get by. I will always be a liberal, and always be passionate about liberal causes and candidates but the time for me to be actively engaged in campaign work is over. It takes too much out of a person after so many years. Maybe it's my own fault for getting involved in the game so young, I figure that's why I'm burned out so fast. I desperately need to find a real job. I have two choices now as it is stands, keep doing this and loose my mind, as this is beating me down both physically and emotionally, or quit and move back to Maine til I can find a job somewhere else. I think, at least for now, despite how much I dislike it, I'll be working and not moving home, we'll see how long I can take it.
I think part of the problem right now is that I am just angry, furiously angry, about being put in this situation. I don't like to use my sight as a scapegoat but as many of you know I felt my previous job searches have been severely hindered by perceptions of potential employers. I will never be able to prove that and I am not interested in suing people but more and more I am interested in making sure the three years of rejections I have faced, due in large part I believe to my visual impairments, never happen to someone else. Somehow I have to show these companies that I can do it if only they'd give me a chance to prove myself. It pisses me off though that I might have to work in the disabled community, I mean not that I have an issue with people with disabilities, far from it, but why should I be relegated to working within the disabled community, and if qualified people with disabilities only work in that community how will anyone outside of it ever hire them, it's a catch-22 as it were. I don't like being angry, but the more I think about the situation the more I am furious about it. Will anyone outside of the campaign community that expects you to work till you drop for next to no pay, ever give me a chance to prove myself? I'm starting to have my doubts
posted by Adam Saturday, March 06, 2004
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Life may have it's up and downs. When you ad up the good, the bad, the mundane and the spectacular, as Harry Chapin realized in his anthem to the dreamers, there was no choice to be made, doing what was in your heart was always the only choice to be made, that's how I live my life, and it's what you see here.
Questions, Comments, want to just let me know someone is actually reading this thing? zimm719@yahoo.com
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